“High Anxiety” - 1/20-26/25

Published on 27 January 2025 at 14:17

Monday, January 20th

M suggested this Mel Brooks classic. (He has so many!) Mom did not remember seeing it and she laughed a lot! I am always thrilled when she enjoys a movie. It's great to see her laugh. M and I called out the Hitchcock movie he was parodying as we tried to guess what was the stand-in for the Institution for the Very, Very Nervous. (It is Mount St. Mary's University of Los Angeles.) We had fun with that movie.

 

Tuesday, January 21st

I had successfully avoided thinking about the inauguration that happened yesterday. I do not mean this website to be political, but I can't avoid what consumes my mind when I am writing the blog. I hope my friends would mostly agree with me and for those who don't, enjoy a liberal point of view. This country is way too divided. Part of the problem I have with our president is that he is very all or nothing, win or lose. There is no room for compromise or empathy.

 

Pardoning the people convicted for the January 6th insurrection is a prime example. Going case by case was ’too onerous’? I call BS! You've had months and months to go through and separate the violent felons from the rest. You just didn't want to, and this was your lame reason. He makes some half-assed excuse that people accept. OK, rant over.

 

Wednesday, January 22nd

I have a shower Wednesday and Sunday morning. I have a suppository every other day. I get my catheter changed once a month. Today the stars aligned and everything happened at the same time. I pooped in the morning and I happen to have D as my CNA. He's a little new and a little slow. I usually get cleaned up first thing, but the doctor showed up before that happened so I had to turn on my back and have my catheter changed and then I got cleaned up. He also had not been told that it was my shower day. So right after he cleaned me up, he gave me a shower. I talked him through that and it was quick. Yikes! A busy morning…

 

That evening, I went out to The Old Spaghetti Factory for a drug company dinner and talk with a doctor. Mom met me at the restaurant and there were three other people at the dinner: the doctor and the drug rep. I had known the drug rep from Maui, so by now we were old friends. Since it was a small group, we sat at one end of the table and talked. It was nice to get out!

 

Thursday, January 23rd

Freddie day! I am now realizing that my therapist was serious when she said, "He is your new Humphrey." My sister and my mom really got on my case about getting attached to a cat that I could not adopt. I pulled back from him a lot because I was getting very attached. Now, I am realizing that I can have a close relationship with him even though I only see him once a week. My sister was fine with me hiring someone who could sit with me so Freddie could have a longer visit. I need to get reacquainted with him.

 

Friday, January 24th

When I wait until the end of the week to write the blog, I have clues for every day except Friday. So I guess what happens on Fridays falls into a black hole in my mind. Six out of seven days is pretty good.

 

Saturday, January 25th

My sister visited with sushi from Whole Foods. Glorious! I have now realized that because they use brown rice in their sushi, it has a more robust, fuller flavor and is more filling. The regular sushi from Foodland is good as well, but the white rice has an emptier feeling somehow. Don't get me wrong, I will choke it down. I'm just noticing the difference between the two.

 

I have a big chunk of change in my trust that Mom and my sister control because of Medicaid. They are both very frugal and practical. I have learned that for me, the money appears when I need it. That is not to say that I don't need to be smart with it, I just am not going to get excited about the idea of ‘what if you spend it all’! Obviously, I would adjust my spending habits before that happened. I see money as a tool for me to use to get what I need now. I have no children so there is no one to pass money onto. My goal is to die with a balance of zero. I am a long way from that right now. It is endlessly frustrating to have other people decide what is important to spend money on and what is not.

 

Sunday, January 26th

Two friends from high school visited today and brought sushi from Foodland. Now, after everything I said yesterday, you might wonder how I reacted. I scarfed it down eagerly! It's not like it tastes bad; it's the difference between brown rice and white rice. I started eating brown rice decades ago and I am very used to its flavor. They are both good, but white rice has an empty-calorie feel, while brown rice has a ‘I'm packed with flavor and nutrition’ feel to me. But please load me up with empty calories all you want! I won't refuse.

 

My other friend brought me a full package of toffee-flavored Oreo cookies. Yikes! I think what I will do is eat the toffee-flavored filling and throw away the cookies. I ate one out of the package to see what it tasted like and then I will not have to do that again. I have an incredible sweet tooth, but I have found that I can have good willpower as well. I only need a little bit of sweets at one time and then I'm good. That package of Oreo cookies could last me six months or longer. If I eat too much sugar, it gets the bad bacteria riled up and I get sick. That is a strong motivation to stay clean.

 

The cover photo for this week is the group shot we took at the drug company dinner on Wednesday. Don't we all look like we're having fun? We are! Have a wonderful week!

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